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Pink Jinx - Prototype bow

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 08:56:59 +0800

LOL prototype? Hahaha! While waiting for RO2 to patch last night, I decided to teach my little...

Out of Nowhere

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 02:48:40 +0800

^Derp shot by my bf while I was fixing my hairbow. The image looks weird, the resolution’s...

Prussian Blue Vibes

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 03:28:00 +0800

I had to attend a certain interview (designer related stuff) last January, I can’t stand...

Japanese high school bag

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 10:00:24 +0800

2 months ago, my best friend and I went to my usual Japan surplus shop nearby to look for a new...

Mellifluous Memory

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 21:00:10 +0800

HYPE on Lookbook.nu: Mellifluous Memory An outfit shot from loooong before, can’t even...

Fragments

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 01:01:14 +0800

pinuna: Muse: Zulueca CriseaMake-up Artist: Kristin CornejoView high-res version...

hey may i ask where you bought your shoes which you wore for your graduation?

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 00:34:19 +0800

Hello! It was indicated at the post :) I bought it from Folded and Hung ^^

Veränderung

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 20:00:14 +0800

Change. Christmas eve. I was with my boyfriend the whole day, and he decided that I should wear...

Photo

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 14:38:50 +0800

Hetalia shipping meme

Fri, 07 Dec 2012 00:38:00 +0800

I CAN’T HELP IT. I NEEDED TO TAKE PART AHAHAHAHAHAH. Meme under the cut. /(*u*)/ FIVE SHIPS...

Photo

Thu, 06 Dec 2012 21:47:39 +0800

Airplanes and rockets

Mon, 03 Dec 2012 14:30:00 +0800

My best friend Rin accompanied me to school three weeks ago to return my toga, and after that we...

Photo

Fri, 30 Nov 2012 21:00:24 +0800

Dreamin' and trippin' down south

Tue, 27 Nov 2012 01:28:00 +0800

Cotton On aviator shades | M+P+E hooded poncho | Gray worn out denim shorts | Brown ankle boots...

Queen Mary’s Dolls’ House (built in the 1920’s) is the most...

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 05:24:00 +0800

Queen Mary’s Dolls’ House (built in the 1920’s) is the most famous doll house in the world. The top artists and craftsman of the time contributed to its construction.

In the house, all of the books are miniatures of contemporary British authors and the replicas of the Crown Jewels have real diamonds and rubies. The house also has both electricity and functioning plumbing.

A pole dancing Gilbert in my favorite outfit of his. Dream...

Fri, 09 Nov 2012 03:10:00 +0800

A pole dancing Gilbert in my favorite outfit of his. Dream fulfilled, yet again. @u@ Ermegerdddd!

Hellooooo Med! (Should I call you Med? or, uhh err.. T___T)...

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 20:41:48 +0800

Hellooooo Med! (Should I call you Med? or, uhh err.. T___T) Sorry I don’t know how to reply after your post ; A ; Anyway, thank you! Nah, that’s fewer make-up compared to others. Aside from what I’ve used, some would also include eyebrow pencils, primers, bb creams, contouring make-up, etc. :))

I think it took me 15 minutes just for the eyes, mostly because of the eyeliner “oTL

le plus simple que je peux obtenir

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:00:00 +0800

HYPE on Lookbook.nu!: Le plus simple que je peux obtenir (by Zulueca Crisea) The title says it all,...

Another treasure for myself!

Wed, 24 Oct 2012 02:19:57 +0800

Well yes! Finally I’m done with college! YAAAAAEY! And wtf I got a medal!! It was during...

And when I do.. (by Zulueca Crisea De Guia)Sometimes I just feel...

Mon, 08 Oct 2012 23:56:00 +0800

And when I do.. (by Zulueca Crisea De Guia)

Sometimes I just feel the need to dress down.

Especially when I totally frustrated. Days like this come several times a month, and ever since I finished college, my frustration doubled compared from years before, one of the major reasons is my age.

Not to boast, but I do get a lot of people telling me that I look younger than my age, around 2-3 years younger. I appreciate it a lot, since I don’t want to look my age at all hahaha, but it really is frustrating and heavy on the inside.

Because I feel like I haven’t enjoyed my teen years that much, it went by so fast. I had a lot of dreams back then and thinking about it now, I haven’t really fulfilled most of it yet. It’s not that grand or anything, just small things like having a lot of time to sew, craft, cosplay, audition for lots of shizniz, and a bunch of silly teenager stuff. I wanted to prove something back then ~~but my “forgiving” and “kind” nature took over and gave in back then, because I thought I could change my guy then who restrained me~~ ;ls;. But meh, I wasted A LOT of precious time. 2 years of nothingness. Airhead.

I’m not that old, I’m 22. Turning 23 in a couple of months. It’s not too late I know, but other factors like work, and some other responsibilities, keep holding me back a bit. The idea of marriage, and having a child, is also almost there. Yes, I want to get married to my boyfriend of almost 4 years, but after that he wants a child already, and I don’t. Not yet. Not in 2 years. I’m not even good with kids yet, they annoy me and they scare me ;A; (sige ako na masama haha!)

And it’s all because of my never ending frustration of doing something for myself. I’m working on it now, but then I lack inspiration. With no one supporting, all I have is myself for these things to happen. Some of them cannot be achieved anymore because of my age, despite of how I look.

Reasons, I have a lot of them.But past is past anyway, all that matters right now is what I should do. I just need to be more decisive. All is well in my life right now and I have nothing to worry about.

And like today, I have accomplished lots of things. I woke up early (9 am = EARLY. I usually wake up at 1 pm). I went to my sister’s school to deliver something. It was my first time to cook Chicken Curry and it turned out well. I’ve cleaned my room again. I washed 1 week worth of clothes. I cleaned, oiled, and practiced with my sewing machine again. I made an additional cabinet design for my room. I segregated the coins from my piggy bank to be deposited/exchanged to bills soon. ALL OF THAT TODAY. So fulfilling. ; u ;